I apologize to my five readers. :) The following post is a little self indulgent and probably whiny. I am not sure what has brought about my change in mood lately.
The fall is my favorite time of year. I love the cooling air, the smell of leaves that have turned and fallen, the thought that a long winter is just around the corner. I love it all. It is also a busy time of year for me. Parties, birthdays, and holidays compete for my attention and I rarely turn down an invitation. Keeping busy is keeping me from getting busy.
Although, there is not a lot to tell lately. Don turned out to be a disappointment. We set a time to meet and he cancelled. We continued to chat but I noticed he was only available to me late at night and I started to slowly realize that we were probably never going to meet. I think he is afraid to take that next step and that is fine, but I don't have the time to wait on him to get there.
The boss has not called or come around in awhile. We are very hands-off these days and I am getting used to that dynamic between us. I am here when he needs me and if I ever need him, I know he would come.
Then I started thinking...always dangerous, I admit, that perhaps, I should take a break from AM. A break from the whole other life for awhile. I am feeling lucky at this moment. Lucky that I haven't been caught and lucky that I haven't hooked up with a creep who stalks me. Just lucky. Perhaps I should just stop and be happy with what I have.
That's just it. I am happy with what I have and that is why I have this whole other secret life. So if it isn't happiness I am after, what is it? Yes, a nice break from AM while I focus on me for awhile.
Hey, is that a new email in my AM box???
1 comment:
Taking a break is an important consideration. I feel lucky that I never met a psycho on AM and I feel very unlucky that I got caught and that it turned my world upside down. But I also met the love of my life, so there are risks/benefits to every decision. Good luck with yours.
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